For English 12, we had to write a college essay on the most influential person in our lives, here it goes:
In my short sixteen years of living, only one person has had a huge impact on my life, My 27 year old sister Melissa. She taught me how to not treat the ones I love and care about.
When I was younger, my sister never got along with my parents, and the day that her High School graduation came rolling around, she wanted out of the house. Soon after telling us that, she got an internship at Disney World, as the ticket checker at The Race Way. At four in the morning about a week after, My dad took Missy down to Florida. She loved her new job,, we always got letters and phone calls from her telling us how much she missed us and would love us to visit. But eventually, the letters stopped coming, and the phone stopped ringing. About a year later, at age twenty, My sister got a DWI, and due to her age, was taken directly to a local prison. Late one night, my mother recived a phonecall from a Florida police station, explaining the unfortunate incodent. A few weeks later, returned a liscense-less, Jobless, hopeless shell of my sister. A person I hardly recodnized or knew. Now living back at home, Missy worked for my dad at Yukon Marketing, his computer buisness. He had given her a roof over her head, and money in her pocket. But one day, as we all suspected, She wanted to leave, again. So she moved to Palmyra, but still worked for my dad, and all was well.
A few years later, my parents went through an extreamly messy divorce, and it hit Missy, hard. As she always does, to deal with the change, she uprooted herself, and moved to Chicago with her new Fiance.
After she moved, Things weren't the same, no phonecalls, no letters, no visits. Until one day, My dad recieved an email from her, Elated, he opens it to read it. All that was inside of it was her slamming him, telling him that he is a horrible parent and that he should have raised me better. Telling him that the reason that my mother and I do not talk is because of him. She told him how immature he was, and that he didn't deserve her respect. Reading this myself, I decided to reply from my account. I expressed my hatrid for what she said, very nicely. That same day, I got an email back, (saying things i can't expose in this essay). And since that day, I have had no contact with her.
Melissa Anne Ruminski, my sister, has had the largest impact on my life, teaching me that if you disregard the ones you love, you may lose yourself in the process. For 2 years now, I have had no contact with her, not by choice, but by fear that by talking to her, I may get hurt deeply. Always be thankful for what you have, never disregards the ones that care about you.
im done with this over-protective, always angry, never trusting BULLSHIT.
It was cute for a little, to have someone to keep me in fucking line.
But i can hold my fucking own in this world,
Done with all the bullshit, anyone who has anything to say about it, can fuckkkkk off.
How I'm basically feeling tonight...
Something more is hidden behind these words,
If you really understand, you will tell me, or let me know.
Because Im so sorry for what I have been putting you through,
No kyle doesnt read this, its not about him,:
I can't explain...
I need to be alone.
I know the timing isn't great
But these things, you just can't plan.
I just need a little time
So I can find myself again
'Cause I get buried underneath
All the things they think you are
And I'm too tired to pretend it doesn't hurt
To be left out
I had a pocket full of dreams
But I gave them all to you
Now I think I want them back
So can you tell me if I'm crazy or confused?
Don't ever change
The way you are
I've never loved anyone more.
Bad habits
Bad habits
Bad Habits
Bad habits, Bad habits
Picked a few up nine years in this game
Bad habits, Bad habits
Life style's fast driving me insane
Bad habits, bad habits
Daily doses you just got to maintain
Bad habits, bad habits
Drinking beer, smoking weed, and a pack a day
A pack a day (Cigerettes) seven grams of weed (chronic) A beer when i'm ready (Bud light)
Yall know me, (Who?) yeah I got some habits, I picked up a few, it's the d-lo-c so what chu gonna do?
The demons inside me, are clinging so tightly, the voices in my head say "You don't wanna come down" m'kay.
A pack a day to get me by, an ounce of weed to keep me high
Alochol still numbs the pain, some things in life just never change
I don't know but i've been told, you live this way you won't grow old
Our addiction hits so quick, these bad habits are hard to quit
Bad habits, Bad habits
Everybody has them, who you got to blame?
Bad habits, Bad habits
Flush it all away, go an' spit it down the drain
Bad habits, Bad habits
Chemical dependencies have a hold of your brain
Bad habits, Bad habits
When my time comes, I'll go out with a bang
I got problems that I don't tell many, talk about bad habits shit, I got plenty
Nicotine, weed, beer, shooting pool and playing cards, mushrooms, pills, strange pussy fast cars
Yeah, Jonny Richter, pass the mic, better yet don't, need to pass the pipe
I'm trying to hit that shit, but you're not paying attention, I wanna pack a rip, don't trip just keep sitting
A pack a day to get me by, an ounce of weed to keep me high
Alochol still numbs the pain, some things in life just never change
I don't know but i've been told, you live this way you won't grow old
Our addiction hits so quick, these bad habits are hard to quit
Bad habits, Bad habits
Picked a few up nine years in this game
Bad habits, Bad habits
Life style's fast driving me insane
Bad habits, bad habits
Daily doses you just got to maintain
Bad habits, bad habits
Drinking beer, smoking weed, and a pack a day
This wishing addition is kinda strange to me, gotta quit gotta kick for my family
Cuz if I crash fast everybody's outie, And that's way too heavy pressing on me
It's the d double dash, I bash like an army, and when it's time to mash, I crash really strongly
I always pop a pill with the three roll bent I complish my task, you can't hold me (me)
A pack a day to get me by, an ounce of weed to keep me high
Alochol still numbs the pain, some things in life just never change
I don't know but I've been told, you live this way you won't grow old
Our addiction hits so quick, these bad habits are hard to quit
Your eyes they just won't open, you don't know what you been smoking
Got your whole family hoping "Oh I wish that he'd just slow down" (slow down)
The game is tough and silent where these groups are just smokin', soldier.
You're smoking and then toking and you're dead in the ground (Na Mean?)
A pack a day to get me by, an ounce of weed to keep me high
Alochol still numbs the pain, some things in life just never change
I don't know but i've been told, you live this way you won't grow old
Our addiction hits so quick, these bad habits are hard to quit
Bad habits, bad habits
shut up and let me go HEY!
Shut up and let me go
This hurts I tell you so
For the last time you will kiss my lips
Now shut up and let me go
Your jeans were once so clean
I bet you've changed your wardrobe since we met
No oh so easily you're over me
Gone is love it's you that ought to be
Holding me, I'm not containable
This time love is not sustainable
I ain't freaking, I ain't faking this...
I ain't freaking, I ain't faking this...
I ain't freaking, I ain't faking this...
Shut up and let me go, hey.
Shut up and let me go
This hurts what I can't show
For the last time you have me in bits
Now, Shut up and let me go
For fear of living in regret
I changed since from - when we first met
Now oh so easily you're over me
Gone is love it's me that ought to be
Moving on you're not adorable
I want something un-ignorable
I ain't freaking, I ain't faking this...
I ain't freaking, I ain't faking this...
I ain't freaking, I ain't faking this...
Shut up and let me go, hey.
Oh love, hold this! (hey)
Hey!
Shut up and let me go
This hurts I told you so
For the last time you will kiss my lips
Now shut up and let me go, hey!
